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[On 10th and 11th December there were no speaking darshans. The 11th was the birthday celebration, and the book contains a description of this.]


Anand means bliss, apta means one who has achieve -- done who has achieved bliss. And this is the paradox -- that the goal is already achieved before the journey has even started. It is not something new that is going to happen; it is the ancient-most in you. You may have to knock on many doors before you come to yourself; that is another thing. You may have to go around the world before you arrive at yourself; that is another thing. But when you arrive, you see the whole ridiculousness of the journey because the goal was before the journey had even started.


That's what Jesus says. He says, 'Before Abraham was, I am.' He disturbs the whole concept of time, because Abraham existed thousands of years before Jesus; he is the father of Judaism. Naturally people were puzzled, confused. Somebody asked, 'What are you saying? Are you in your senses? You are not more than thirty and you are saying that you were before even Abraham; that looks absurd!'


Yes, it is in the ordinary logic, but there is something that is more than logic in it, truer than any logic. When he says, 'Before Abraham was, I am,' he means that the goal is before the journey, that eternity is before history, that when you come, when you arrive, you arrive at the source; the source is the goal. So you can have as big a journey as possible or you can cut it short or you can go on revolving round and round, but whenever you arrive there is laughter. Then you see the whole point of it, that this is where you have always been.


That's what Hakuin means when he says, 'From the very beginning, all beings are Buddhas.'


[A sannyasin says that she has a wish for security that is very strong in her. Sometimes I get so afraid of it, she says. I feel so helpless, just like a child.


That is reality: everybody is like a child, Osho responds. How tiny we are! Just compare with this vast universe, this mother of all. This is the truth that is dawning on you but you want to avoid it. We are helpless; to recognise this is to become religious.


Accept this... not only accept it, welcome it, enjoy it. This is what I want to bring to everybody -- that we are helpless, we are children of this existence, that we are small and that there is no need to fight, no need to be strong. To be fragile is beautiful. Don't make a problem out of it. Relax into it. You are very close to a beautiful space, but if you resist and shrink away and withdraw, you will miss the point. Keep this (a box) with you, and whenever the desire for strength arises, put it on your heart and I will make you childish again!]


[A sannyasin says: Sometimes when I sit it seems as if the body disappears, but all tension goes out up here, somewhere here at my forehead. It seems like the watcher is sitting there like a gate which I can't break through.
Osho checks her energy.]


You are watching too much... and nothing else. You should not make it such a strain; there is no need to become so obsessed with watching. Remember the difference between watching and witnessing. Witnessing is a totally different thing. Watching is active, witnessing is passive. When you watch you are very intent, tense, as if some danger is around; that creates the tension on the forehead. When you witness there is no danger, there is nothing to watch. You simply relax into a kind of passivity, a lucidity, a serenity, and if something passes by, of course you are there so you will see it, but there is no intention to look for it.


It is like being a mirror: if something passes, the mirror will reflect it; if nobody passes then the mirror will remain empty. But the mirror will not go following you, looking for where you are. The mirror has to reflect.


You are watching, you are not witnessing; that is the difficulty. Just relax and let things happen. If sometimes a few things are missed, nothing to be worried about, because they are not worthwhile. If they are missed, it is okay. Become more passive....


Just that passivity and the problem will disappear. Once it disappears you will feel very very... Because energy is good everywhere. Just because you are watching, and watching happens through the third eye, it will come there and accumulate, and then it can become too much, it can almost become a headache. Mm? the whole body is relaxed and the whole tension moves at one point; it can become very severe.
Relax, enjoy, be passive, and I will take care of you.

[A sannyasin, newly arrived, says he is waiting for somebody to come.]


Just wait. Waiting is a great thing to do, mm? But remember, nobody ever comes! All waiting is waiting in vain. And even if somebody comes, it never turns out to be what you were waiting for... but still wait! Good.
			

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