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[NOTE: This is an unedited tape transcript of an unpublished darshan diary, which has been copy-typed on to the computer. It is for reference purposes only.]


Truth is available only to the lover
Not to the logician.
Truth opens itself only when you drop the mind
And listen from the heart.
One can go on thinking about truth and one can
Create great systems of thought about truth
But to think about truth is not to know truth.
It is an experience, not a question of thinking
And experience needs a totally different approach.
And for centuries we have been trained
In logic, not in love --
That's why we go on missing truth.


Everybody wants to seek truth It is something intrinsic It is something so deep-rooted in man
That one cannot avoid seeking it, it is a must.
But one can seek in a wrong way
Then one will not find.


Mind is the wrong approach
The heart, the right approach.
The initiation into sannyas means A shift from the head to the heart.


Meditation is alchemical
It transforms your whole being
It destroys all limitations, all narrowness
And makes you wide.
It helps you to get rid of all boundaries:
The boundaries of religion, nation, race.
Awareness helps you not only to get rid of
All kinds of logical, ideological confinements,
Imprisonments, but also it helps you to transcend
The limitation of the body, the mind.
It makes you aware that you are
Pure consciousness and nothing else.
The body is only your house, you are not it.
Mind is only a mechanism to be used.
It is not the master, it is just a servant.


As you become aware
That you are neither the body nor the mind
You start expanding, you become wider and wider
You start becoming oceanic, skylike.
That transformation brings glory to you
And also it brings victory to you.


A man who lives without meditation
Lives in defeat and failure.
A man without meditation
Lives an undignified life because he lives
In prison, in a small dark hole while
His birthright is to be as big as the sky.
Even the sky is not the limit!


Put your total energy into becoming
More aware, more watchful, more alert;
Aware of , your body, aware of your thoughts
Aware of your feelings.
In the beginning it is difficult
Because for centuries, for millions of lives
We have lived in an unconscious way
Hence it has become almost second nature
For us to live the life of a prisoner.


We have forgotten completely
That it is a prison in which we are living.
We have started believing in the chains.
Not only do we rationalise our chains
We decorate our chains, we colour them
We decorate them in beautiful ways.
We not only deceive others, we deceive ourselves
That they are not chains but ornaments.
We can make our chains golden
We can make our chains Studded with diamonds and emeralds
We can make beautiful chains -- very artistic
And then we can fall in love with the chains.
That's what has happened.
And it has been such a long process
That we have completely forgotten
The language of freedom -- we have become slaves.


Sannyas means a tremendous awakening
A great commitment to wake up.
It is an arduous effort, it is an uphill task
But it is worth it.
Because it is only through awareness
That you will know what life is:
Its beauty, its poetry, its significance
Its glory, its victory,
All these can be said in a single word
And that word is god.


God is only a metaphor -- it represents
All that is beautiful and valuable
All that is significant.
It represents eighty-four thousand poems.


Go beyond following.
If you want to be a Christ
The most significant thing to understand is
That following is not going to help you,
It is a hindrance, it is a barrier.
All followers are imitators
All followers are false and pseudo.
Each individual has to be himself or herself.


Jesus is an authentic individual
He is not a follower of anybody.
He is not a follower of Moses
He is not a follower of Abraham.
These were enlightened people, Abraham and Moses.
Jesus loved them, but he was not a follower.
He appreciated the beauty of these people
He appreciated, he imbibed their spirit
But he was not a follower.
He tried to be himself
That's why he was punished.
The society does not like individuals.
It wants followers, imitators, pseudo people.
It is afraid of real human beings
It is perfectly at ease with the phony ones.


The authentic individual is bound to be punished.
That's why Jesus was crucified:
He became Christ. Christ means he attained
Realisation of his own being.


You cannot be a follower of Christ.
You can be a Christ, you can be a Buddha --
They are synonymous.
'Buddha' is the eastern word with the same meaning
'Christ' is the western word
For the same experience.
But never be a Buddhist
And never be a Mohammedan, never be a Christian --
Just be yourself!


My whole effort here is to help you to be free
From all kinds of religions and churches
And Bibles and Gitas and Korans
So that you can grow
According to your intrinsic nature.
Certainly the day you are awakened
You are a Christ.
Why settle for being a Christian?
Christ was not a Christian -- remember.
And if you meet Christ he will immediately say,
'Don't be a Christian.
It is not a beautiful phenomenon to be a Christian.
Be a Christ!'
Christ means the crowned one, the annointed one,
The blessed one.


So you have to transcend all kinds of following.
By becoming a sannyasin
You are not becoming a follower of mine,
No, not at all.


I am not interested in creating followers.
I certainly want to help you to be yourself
But I don't want to force you
According to a certain pattern.


Each sannyasin has to be unique -- remember it,
Because god never creates two individuals alike,
He always creates unique individuals.
Hence a really religious person
Cannot be a follower -- drop the very idea.


Humanity has suffered very much because
Of this whole stupid idea of following others.
Learn to be free. Learn from everyone
From Moses, from Mohammed, from Jesus from
Zarathustra, from Krishna, from Confucius.
Learn from the whole world.
Remain available.
Be a disciple: always open to grow
Always open to receive any challenge
That life gives to you.
Respond totally, accept every challenge.
That's the way of growth -- not following.


Every man is born
With many kinds of bitternesses, many poisons.
Man needs to renew himself, to transform himself
To drop much that is ugly, much that is bitter.


Life is a great art.
One should not take life for granted.
Birth is not synonymous with life
Birth is only an opportunity
Then you have to work upon yourself.
There are a thousand and one things
To be dropped greed is there, anger is there,
Hatred is there, lust is there
And so on, so forth.
And unless these things are dropped
Unless they are removed from our being...
These are like weeds
And we are so full of these weeds
That we cannot grow roses in our being.
We have to take out, uproot all the weeds
We have to change the whole soil
We have to remove all the stones
We have to prepare the ground
Only then are roses possible.


And when roses grow in your being
Your life starts having joy
Your life starts having beauty
Your life starts having grace.
And then you have something to offer to god
Otherwise what is there to offer?


We have so many ugly things
Which cannot be offered to god.
We have to hide them
But by hiding them, nothing is changed.
The more we hide them, the more we repress them,
The deeper and deeper do those weeds go.
Their roots become more and more strengthened
They get more nourished.


Becoming a sannyasin means a commitment
That you will try now for the real birth
And you will deliberately drop many kinds of
Stupid ideas which dominate the mind.
Mind is full of stupidities
And much has to be done.
Man is almost like a raw diamond.
A jeweller can understand the hidden beauty
Of the raw diamond
Ordinarily you will not be able
To see any beauty in it,
It will look like just an ordinary stone
Maybe a little cclourful, maybe a little shining
But nothing very special.


Before the Kohinoor.
The greatest diamond in the world,
Was found in Golconda, in India,
The person who found it in his field
Had it for three years
And had no idea what it was.
He just thought it was a beautiful stone.
His children played with it for three years.
He might have lost it,
The children might have thrown it away,
But somehow it remained in the house.
travelling sannyasin had stayed for the night
And he could not believe his eyes
Because he had once been a jeweller.
He said, 'What are you doing?
You can become the richest man in the world!
I have never come across such a diamond.
This is the biggest diamond ever.'


Then the work started on it.
Now it is part of the crown of the British queen.
The weight is one-third of the original,
So much has been cut and polished. but it has
Become millions of times more beautiful
And that's how man is:
Every man is born like a raw diamond.


I can see -- I have been a jeweller!
So when I look at you I can see a diamond,
A great diamond -- but you are not aware
Because you don't have any idea what a
Great opportunity has been given to you
And what you can do with your life.
You can create such dance, such music
Such immense beauty, such incredible ecstasy
Which is unimaginable.
But people die without ever experiencing
Anything worthwhile that
For the simple reason they never
Prepare themselves for it.
Life has to be an art, and one has to work hard.
Only then does the transformation happen.


Once you drop the ego you are godly.
The only barrier is the ego.
Intrinsically everybody is a god
Potentially everyone is a god
But the ego is covering us.
It has to be removed.
It is a thick layer
Of absolutely unnecessary dust
It has no meaning at all.


But we are trained for it
The society prepares Us for it.
It serves the vested interests.
Society needs you to be egoists
Because unless you are egoists
You will not be ambitious.
And if you are not ambitious
Then the whole economic structure
The political structure --
All will simply collapse.
They all depend on ambition.
So every child has to be poisoned
Through ambition. And ambition means egos
You have to be the first.
You have to be the president of the country
The prime minister of the country
You have to be the richest man
You have to win the Nobel prize
You have to be Mr. Universe
And you have to be a beauty queen
And all kinds of nonsense!
Only one thing is not allowed you
To be yourself, simply yourself.
Everything else you can try
But never to be just simply, ordinarily yourself.


If everybody is simply himself
The whole economic structure and politics
Will go down the drain.
Who would like to be the president? For what?
It will be impossible to find somebody
To become president
Unless you make it a punishment,
Somebody commits some crime and then
He has to be president of the country.
Somebody commits a crime
Or is found trying to commit suicides then he
Can be punished by being prime minister.
Things like that.., otherwise who would suffer
All kinds of neuroses and psychoses
And tensions and anguish and anxiety?
Who would be so stupid as to waste his life?


The whole of religion is a rebellion Against the structure of ego and ambition.


Learn to drop the ego.
The day the ego disappears all is achieved.
All that's worth achieving
All that will give you bliss and freedom
All that will make you aware
That you are immortal
That there is no end and no beginning
That you are eternal.
Then suddenly life becomes a celebration.


Everybody is born as a rock
And everybody has to become a flower.
Everybody is born absolutely closed
And everybody has to become open
To life, to love, to god
To the wind, to the rain, to the sun.


To be a rock helps you to remain protected,
It is a kind of security -- one is very safe.
To be a flower is dangerous
Because the flower is so fragile, so delicate.
It is dangerous to be a flower
That's why very few people try to be flowers.
They would like to remain rocks.
Rocks live long.
But what kind of life does a rock have?
It has no life.
It lives long because it is already dead.
It cannot die because it is not alive.


Don't be hard, don't be rocklike.
Become sort, vulnerable.
Yes, it is dangerous to be a flower
But the only way to live is to live dangerously.
That's the way of sannyas: to live in danger
To live in insecurity
To live in tremendous trust
That whatsoever happens is good.


Even if the flower lives -only one day
Or for only one moment,
It is far more valuable
Than the long lire of a rock.
A single moment of being a flower and fragrant
And dancing in the wind
And in the sun and in the rain
Is far more valuable
Than to be a rock for eternity
Because that single moment contains eternity.


The rock is a grave, so come out of the rock.
Everybody is born as a rock, remember,
So there is nothing wrong in it.
Everybody is born as a rock
But everybody is born with the capacity
And the potential to be a flower.
This is-' the miracle of life, the magic of life
That here rocks can become flowers.
It all depends on you, on your courage.
Gather courage and then all the mysteries of life
Start opening up for you.


Remember always
Bliss cannot become a goal of your ambitions
It is not an achievement.
On the contrary, it showers on you only
When you have dropped all idea of achievement.
When the achieving mind is no more there
When you have dropped all kinds of ambitiousness
Suddenly, as a gift of god
The grace of god
Bliss starts showering on you.


You cannot achieve it
But you can open up to receive it.
There is no way to reach it directly
One has to be very indirect.
It is the sutbtlest experience of life.
You cannot be aggressive
You have to be very feminine.
You have to learn to wait, to be patient.
Infinite patience is needed.
If one is in a hurry one will miss.
God is not possible if you are in a hurry.
If you are in a hurry
Then it is nothing but the ego.


The ego is always impatient.
It is afraid of death
That's why it is impatient.
It is constantly scared
Because death can happen any moment.
Death is always there waiting
It can jump upon you, any moment --
One never knows... Hence time seems to be very short
And much has to be attained.
So be in a hurry, be speedy.


That is not the way to attain bliss.
Relax, rest and trust that whenever you are ripe
And when the season comes and your turn come.
The grace will shower on you.
It can't be otherwise, it is inevitable.
God is never unfair
Existence is very just, absolutely just.
But one has to learn how to welcome.
Just keep your doors open and wait.
That's what meditation is all about:
Keeping your doors open with a welcoming heart
Waiting, trusting, praying, but not in a hurry.
Then one day the miracle happens
And it always happens as a gift.


You can never claim it as your achievement
Because it happens only when you are not,
There is nobody to make any claim.
The ego is no more there to claim.
You are simply empty, utterly void.
Absolutely no one is there inside you.


In that very moment the mystery becomes available.
That emptiness becomes the host for the guest.
Your being becomes the host
And god becomes the guest.



			

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